I Wish You Could Be Happy - Snow Patrol

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

Lyrics that explain exactly how you feel ..

my heart script

Life is complicated ...
since the end
of too many things happened ..
All I can do is ...
I can only express it through lyrics and songs...
Lord, all I wish is Happiness..
a smile on my face..

Nicest Things

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you'd always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

Alone

alone

No one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why should we involve them; why should it show.

You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.

The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.

Jayesslee - Officially Missing You

Ahah; its cute..plus the animation.. <3

*thumbs up* :)

Say Goodbye..?

If I seem distant
Baby I am
Words are like scissors in your hands
And there's no script to follow
So I just close my eyes
That way it won?t hurt so much
When we say goodbye

I feel just like an actress
Up on the stage
I can't believe
What i'm hearing myself say
And the porch light is my spotlight
So I play along with this life
That way it won?t hurt so much
When we say goodbye

Did you ever love me?
Does it even matter?
Did you even notice the whole world shatter?
I just want to hold you 'til you know i'm sorry
But I just keep it all inside
That way it won?t hurt so much
When we say goodbye

My heart feels like a circus
it's to much to take in
it's hard to lose love
But you were my best friend

So I walk this high wire
Alone?.tonight
That way it won?t hurt so much
When we say goodbye

That way it won?t hurt so much
When we say goodbye

New Chapter In IPGBL

It was a fairytale for me to be here.. trying so hard few times before and here I am now. It's like a dream come true.. I'm blessed to have this opportunity plus my intake mostly are Sarawakian group..so it is more easy for me in term of the culture and language.

My first week was like .. Oh Gosh! I never thought it's going to be so packed and hethic like this..? I was like, dying in the first place. (especially during the orientation week) where I fell sick and got this migraine and some sort of thing..mixed feeling and homesick..but now..thank God. I can handle it. :) yippie!
Every Saturday and Sunday is like feeling in paradise for me..because I can relaxing my mind and body from doing anything..but now, they booked my Saturday for our replacement class for raya..and I can only have time to relax on Sunday. My oh My... it was like an Army Camp in the making..haha
The first and second week for me is like oh God, I wanna go back! I want my family and friends.. I can't take this anymore...but i the end..I found this new chapter of life quit interesting..too many to explain why I am still here until today..Me myself keep wondering..Am I supposed to be here..really..? Is this what I want..? erm, I believe God has a plan in our lives..for sure to be a teacher is not an easy job..it's to deal with the life of our new generations. So, hopefully I'll be an inspired teacher for my future students..hopefully :)
So, it's the almost a month here in IPGBL..I kinda like what I'm doing now..wake up early in the morning and back home late in the evening..sometime have to go for the night class. Interesting right..? yeah oh yeah.. :P
So, this coming Monday will be our B.I.G camp in Pulako santubong...yea, I'm exited about it..I love a adventure! can't wait to do those kind of things such as rock climbing..mount climbing..Kayaking..singing and dancing in the jungle...what else arh..?? So, hopefully everyone will be happy and enjoy!